2 Days More......

Hi my dear jil

Only 2days to go to my birthday, still we are in fight, this fight will solve are it will continue?

You said in my last call you don’t want any kind of relationship with me and that you told you hate me.

I done a wrong thing I accept but that mistake deserve this big punishmen

t? I will say that 100 percent that is not a reason that you hate me something more than that I don’t know what it is.

I doing lot of nonsense things to get you in my life again, but everything ends with sorrow I really need you in my entire life that I told you lot of times I want to marry you and enjoy the life with you I want to live with you I want to die in your lap . But what should I do now you hate me.

Still 2 days only there for my birthday, In my life when I mature I only cried with you only dear, I never cried with anyone for any reason even in my sorrow I always smile I never showed my sorrow to anyone.

But now I desperately showing my sorrows to you, because y

ou have to realize that how deeply madly

I am loving you.

You see my fate now sep 2^nd is on my birthday I am going to cry on that entire day because I know very well that you are not going to call me that day, I expect from 1month before I told you also I will be very happy if you call me on that day I expected if you are in abroad also you will call me nu, but we are in the same town still I have hope fingers crossed let me see what is going to happen.

But one thing JIL if you are not calling me on my bir

thday its really going to hurt me lot

YOU ARE GOING TO MADE ME

HAPPY

OR

SAD ON THAT DAY?

IT'S IN YOUR HANDS

love you dear I hope you will not let me down.Missing you badly

compatibility

Today's Compatibility Results With

Liju (JIL)

Raj, both Liju and you are concerned with the betterment of the world and your fellow people. You are the most progressive thinker of your friends, and you always have a new idea in the work. Liju is a diplomat; abhorring conflict of any sort, you are born balancers. Liju's urge to avoid conflict put together with a love of intellectual freedom can lead Liju to be somewhat indecisive at times; when this happens, more decisive you can step in and help Liju figure out which direction to turn. Liju can return the favor by smoothing yours occasionally ruffled feathers that result from your idealistic thinking sometimes crashing down in the face of reality.

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OH MY JIL SHOW ME THE HAPPY

After such a long gap that today you have sent messages to me, all the messages are scolding messages only but even though I love to read your messages. I don’t mind that scolding…..

You have told that you will speak to me one day or another day, but slowly my hope is getting down. I think you clearly decided that not to speak with me I think but,
Why still I believe you. Yes I will believe till my last breath . Something will change you to think about me
I have that hope.






But one thing JIL
I think you remember this Telugu sentence that I sent you before

Yea Jil “Nuvu lekunte nenu badukaledu idhi neemedhi ottu”

Please trust me and give me a chance to change my self …………………


I miss you dear

I miss you very much

As we sit here on earth Missing the once are not here we HOPE and we pray That they are OK But we still wish they were here One more smile One more time we want to hear YOUR voice or YOUR laugh we sit and we think How much we did wrong How much time was wasted? The scream and the anger we gave you How much time we lost With the hard time we gave you When that time could have been spend For that One more smile One more time we want to hear YOUR voice or YOUR laugh we feel so betrayed we feel so alone Because YOU are not here But we know YOU are in a better place And we wrong for feeling this way BUT No one can blame us for that because All we wanted is One more smile One more time we want to hear YOUR voice or YOUR laugh My dear Jil don’t know what you decide still in big confusion you told that if you keep on calling me I will not speak to in your entire life nu, that is why I am keep quiet my dear. But how long I will be like this? Hate everything near to me you Miss you badly my dear. When you will forgive me?

Happy Onam

Oro puvilum Oro thalirilum Oro Manasilum Vasantham Vidarthikondu Veendumoru Onam
" Ponnonashamsakal "
God Bless You
My Dear Friend.........

Why This Sorrow Behind The Happiness?

Why this sorrow behind the happiness?
Life went so smooth
Why this sudden the highest moments of happiness
and sorrow came to cross my way of life?
I enjoyed the happiest moment you gave in my life.
But why I can’t I accept the sorrow you are giving me now?
The human mind is asking only happiness in life
Not sorrow right?
Absolutely it’s correct!
I am an normal human being, I too like only happy moments in my life not sorrows, and then first time I am feeling this pain in my life da. I don’t know this will tear heart like this. How many hurts, tears, mind blowing words came out from your mouth, I never been cried like this in my life. That’s why god giving this pleasant surprise to me to make cry.
Happiness:
"Happiness is not the absence of problems but the ability to deal with them"

- And this is called ATTITUDE...

I too faced lot of problems in my life and I face bravely with confidence to solve the problems whatever it may be. But why I don’t have strength to solve this problem?
Why I am getting tears? Why I am crying? This a power behind you? I know very well that you gave me lot of chances to me to change my attitude, but I never seen that your anger behind the silence, when ever you cry for whatever problems my heart will tear and I too get tears in my eyes, like that me why my self make you to cry? Why I done this sin to you da? I don’t have any answer for you questions. Why this happened to me why I done these things to you? pathetically don’t know.
Do you know what is happening every morning?:
Every morning when I woke up first thing is coming in mind is you are not with me and you are on angry with me. This will make me cry from the day starts, every morning I woke up with tears only. When this sorrow will leave me and when you will talk to me?


PLEASE HELP ME TO COME OUT FROM THIS HELL
PLEASE JIL

When you will?

Hi Jil,
I don't know what to write here, everything going wrong, whatever I do it's ends with sorrow da feel so sad.
Don't know what to do next? But still I have faith on you that you will forgive me nu. But I don't know how its going to happen, if we are doing mistakes with knowledge its an sin, but I am not done like that da emotional jerk is made me to stand here. Everything is happened because of me I done mistakes I apologies forthat and tell me how to correct my self but you are giving me punishments. Every words coming from your mouth hurts me lot but you didn't care about that, you always saying this to me "I never meet people like you" yea you have to realise that everyone is doing mistakes with you and left alone, I can't leave you like that da because you so precious to me.
When you are going to realise that I don't know yaar, you are not a child you will understand my feelings one day or another day, on that day also I will be same like this and I will say
I AM HERE FOR YOU DA
ALWAYS..........
Miss you soo much
RAJ

My Favourite Song

Tamil Movie: Kadhal Virus
Tamil Song: Yeandhan Vaanil........


vaazhga vaazhgavae vaazhga neeyum
vaanam uLLavarai vaazhga endrum
vaazhga vaazhgavae kaadhal vaazhum varai vaazhgavae

endhan vaanin kaadhal nilavae
indhru thaeyvadhu edhanaal nilavae (2)
neeyum vaLar piRaiyaaga nilavae
uyirai tharuvaen kaadhal nilavae.. nilavae...

(endhan vaanin...)

venpani nee thoongiya pulveLi naan
vennila nee minniya viNveLi naan (2)
minnal koadi saerthu vaithu nee siritha kaatchigaL
yaavum indru maayamaaga yaarai kaetka saatchigaL
unnai eNNi vaazhndha kaalam, kaNgaL reNdum eeramaaga
kaadhal ondrum kaayamalla, kaalappoakkil aaRi poaga
nenjam ellaam vaadudhey thazhumbugaLaal

(endhan vaanin...)

ennai vittu poanadhu amaidhiyandroa
neeyum illaa naanumae agadhiyandroa
nooRu koadi aaNdu kaalam vaazhvadhingu veeNadi
endhan kaadhal nee aRindhaal poadhum andha oar nodi
pullin meedhu poagum poadhum kaal sivandha menmai nee
kallin meedhu neeyum ingae poavadhenna kaNmani
indha jenmam vaazhvadhey unakkena dhaan

(endhan vaanin...)

vaazhga vaazhgavae vaazhga neeyum
vaanam uLLavarai vaazhga endrum
vaazhga vaazhgavae kaadhal vaazhum varai vaazhgavae

Why this Pain?

Hi Jil.....
Every time when you come to office I feel like heaven but now days when I see you my heart beat faster then normal my eyes getting tears, My blood rushing through my brain because every time when I see you my heart says that I done mistake I done mistake I feel guilty to see your face Jil. I am so sorry how I can do that nonsense with my sweet friend I am really mad yaar.
My kind request and I pray for this when I see you next time I would like to see your smiling face yaar. I feel so guilty, Even you forgive me I can’t come out from this da.
I loose everything because of my anger, Your smile, your kindness, your care, your prayer, your blessings, your friendship, your voice in phone everything da………….

I want to renew all this things come to my life again. But how? QUESTION MARK
There is an only one chance I will listen you and what ever you say I am going to do. That only make you to trust me.
Every time when I do mistakes and asking you to forgive after you forgiving me I will be normal and forgot that mistakes what I done.

But this time you really make me understand how it will hurt each time forgiving me and I am doing the same mistake again.
I learned well

Please give me the sweetest life you given to me before I will be true to you and I promise you this will never happen again.

GIVE ME A CHANGE AND TRUST ME ONCE.........
PLEASE DA

What Should I Do?

Virgo(Sun Shine):

You'll feel tired and disorientated by the excessive amount of work and
will try to do the least possible to escape from responsibilities.
You'll have to take important decisions for your future. You *Friend*
will set ultimatums but you'll try to escape.
...See you tomorrow.

This is my astrology prediction on today. But it's said very accurate today. I am here going to talk about that last line. Yes Your Friend will set ultimatums yup, what a prediction its an amazing........ first I have to explain here


about
What is ULTIMATUMS?

a final, uncompromising demand or set of terms issued by a party to a dispute, the rejection of which may lead to a severance of relations or to the use of force.

2.

a final proposal or statement of conditions.
Coming to the point
about your ULTIMATUMS
You should not call me....(The you will call me?)
You should not send SMS to me (after my humble request) You can send only 2 sms per day to me.
But what is my confusion is
Did you forgiven me or you raised my Punishment?
It's so hard to do this things
but not even single word I accept without any hesitation but now i feel the heat, How badly I am missing you, You know? It's really to hard to do this things JIL.
But I want the trust you have in me before
for that I will accept this or even so harder punishments,
But You should TRUST ME

One day or another day
WILL YOU?
I like that last line in the prediction

"You *Friend*
will set ultimatums but you'll try to escape."

You will try to escape

But HOW?

I Don't Want Miss You In My Life.........

I have lot of things to share here, But I feel I can't do this here cos I sent this web address to your mobile. I don't know you will see this site or not, One day you will see I know, Thanks for forgiven me JIL I am some what happy now. But you just an decrease my punishment. The Punishment is going on still, You have trust me lot I know before but now everything is gone in a wind. I don't know that how to make you trust me again. I don't want anything my dear friend I made my mind like that, I don't want to miss you in my life you are saying now days "I don't want your friendship raj nu" its really hurts me Jil. I know I done a big mistake for that I don't want this big punishment da. Be my friend always still my last breath that is enough.
Can You?

Forgiveness Makes Happy Today........

Forgiveness

Adrift in a sea of sadness lost in my thoughts Jokes can be taken so harsh when meant to be taken lightly A slip of the tongue is all it takes and suddenly I am alone boxed in a world of fears a world of tears Cruelty is it's game life it's name ever changing, rapidly sweeping me along like a roller coaster I can't stop and as I spin wildly spin out of control scenes from earlier on this ride of life flash through my mind The walls are closing in The room begins to spin I fall to your knees and beg for it to stop I beg and plead for forgiveness knowing that I were wrong I've been to bossy, said too much, I say it will never happen again and I know that you'll do anything I know in your power to keep it from this won't happening again I Know the good people and can't fight like this with them S I plead for forgiveness. You gave that And I Got!

MY LIFE IS GONE NOTHING IS THERE TO TO LOSS

what sin I done loving you is that big sin? What ever this many years from my born to today my goodness and all my good behaving attitude everything has gone in the wind. but this things are doesn't matter. Because I know this will happen, yes today I done a big mistake because of frustration because of the love i have in you the blind madly loving you made me stand here. But don't bother about this this things because you will never going to trust me you already like that now things are not in shape so tough to make to convince you. I have to come back to my old life there is a only one change your forgiveness.
There is no chance nothing can be changed except your forgiveness WILL YOU?..............
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I Miss You More then Words Can Say

Would you just listen and please don't say a word, just yet,
I'd like you to think back to the very first time we met,
How you felt around me? The memories we shared,
And just remember that once upon a time, you really cared.

Now think about how we parted, and how much I cried,
But please don't speak, remember that I never ever lied,
That I told you the honest truth about why we were to split,
But now I'd like you to know that my heart broke bit by bit.

The pain was deep, unbearable and painful, for so many years,
I'll never forget all the sadness, all the uncontrollable tears,
Slowly I am rebuilding my life, I am content with what I've got,
And although it is hard I am beginning to forget what I have not.

You were a special part of my life that I will never forget,
A part of my life that broke my heart, but that I don't regret,
You gave me some happy memories that I'll keep in my heart,
Although sometimes I wish that you and I didn't have to part.

You were my first love and my true love, that will always be so,
After all of the heartache, sadness and never ending pain, I know,
You and I had something special and that will never change,
Because I love you and loving someone else will always seem strange.

Would you just listen and please don't say a word, not ever,
I'd like you to remember that once upon a time, we said forever,
That I had hopes and dreams, that I was the one who threw them away,
And this is something I will always regret until my dying day.

Jil Please Forgive me

Hi my dear liju, nowadays i am really disturbing you lot i know, but all those things i am doing because you are so precious to me liju. I don't want to leave you in my life, I like you that much, you know that very well but, so what something is stop you to think. but i will never change my dear i will love you still my last breath, I know that you lot of time you feel that love i am having in you some time you stumbling to talk and avoid to talk when i am speaking about my love on you, that means you are struggling to decide, I feel lot of times that the love you have in me some time you speechless when i am talk some times you are speechless, some time you are listening me all this things are love only liju but you are not at all going to admit that i know. but i don't know liju in this short time of our relation ship you show me the highest happy moment and sorrow moment in my life. but lot of time i am adjusting my self to don't get angry and i should not show my emotions to you but i am also human being its has came out some time its make lot of problems in my life. actually i should not accept that you asked me to be a friend to you but that time i don't have any options so that i done that nonsense. There after when ever you shows your affection and caring on me its made me to stand here. What ever i done on that Sunday in chetpet is absolutely wrong that cant be forgotten as earliest i know, i am really sorry for that incident i should not behave like that, but that also the higher emotion of love only even though when i speaking to you in bus stand i cant control my self i am trying do that i should not cry but when i see your face i am speechless and getting tears automatically all this things behind your love is there my dear and you told about that ur friend whom came with you on church she will take you in wrong sense but i know she will not cos she is also in love I gonna miss you badly i know that i am not angry on you i know what ever you done that for my good only. but one day or another day u will understand me. we may not going to meet each other again i think, If we meet don't turn your face please you are always my sweet heart all the best for your carrier and all your dreams come to true as earliest i pray to our god jesus almighty
ALL THE BEST
With love LOOSE RAJ

I am So ...Sorry Forgive Me Please...........